Begin

So I decided to do a writing challenge for the month of February. I am trying to be more accountable in my writing. So today is the beginning of accountability, in more ways than one. I tend to make sure everyone else is ok somehow neglecting myself. So where do I begin?

Someone asked me the other day when I was going to realize that I was failing everyone by trying to help them. It really hurt my heart. Until that moment, I didn't feel like I had failed him. So I asked him had I failed him and his response was he wouldn't be where he is today if it hadn't been for his time with me. He finished school while with me. He decided what he wanted to do with his life and pursued it while with me. He has now been pursuing a form of that dream for 11 years. If that is what failing looks like, I guess I am thankful that I failed while his adult life truly began.

I will do my best to continue to give others hope and new beginnings. To show them that there is a different life than what they are used to. I will continue to believe in people even when they don't believe in themselves. Even when other people tear them down.

That is who I am. It is what I am. It is also the one thing that I truly like about me. The ability to love and forgive like Jesus did. Lord please help me to remember that at the end of the day that no one can make me feel inferior without my consent.

So today, the adventure of accountability to myself begins.... look out world, here I come.

This is me, Chasing my Serenity.