Enough

Google defines ENOUGH as, "as much or as many as required". in or to a degree or quantity that satisfies or that is sufficient or necessary for satisfaction.

I always wonder if I am enough. Am I pretty enough? Am I smart enough? Am I good enough? Am I strong enough? Am I worth it? Do I deserve more? Do I deserve to be happy?

But who am I trying to satisfy? I should be asking all of these questions of myself. Am I enough for me? My value doesn't decrease based on someone else's inability to see my worth. Am I enough for myself? If I am not enough for myself how can I be enough for anyone else.

Am I enough for Jesus? I ask myself that daily. I was scrolling thru facebook and ran across this reel from a couple named Kat and Alex who have written a song that I don't even know the name of yet. The lyrics hit me like a ton of bricks and I have listened to what they have released of it over and over again. It says, "When my heart was at the bottom it was yours that wouldn't quit, and when I was dying in my sin it was mercy that let me live. Oh I have never known a love as good as this. When I gave up on me; you never did." When I listen to that song I ask myself how can I not be enough for Jesus. Because no matter how dark it has ever gotten for me, HE was always right where I left him. Waiting for me to decide to ask him to come back.

So I will ask these questions of myself on a daily basis and try to see myself the way that Jesus sees me. According to a Lauren Daigle song he says the following things.

He says I am loved when I can't feel a thing, He says I am strong when I think I am weak

And He says I am held when I am falling short, And when I don't belong, oh He says I am His

I choose to believe these lyrics because music speaks to me when I can't seem to form thoughts or words or put my feelings together.

In a note to self, I will write: My feelings are valid. I am allowed to enforce my boundaries. I do not need anyone else's approval. I know that I am capable of doing amazing things. I am enough. I am pretty enough. I am strong enough. I am smart enough. I am good enough. I do deserve to be happy. I am worth it!

Perhaps in all those situations that I thought I wasn't good enough, maybe the truth was I was overqualified and needed to see myself thru Jesus' eyes.

If there is ever a doubt in your mind that you are not enough; ask yourself this question. Who am I not enough for?